I know what will be your answer, at first I don't know why I even called you. I just stood up from my PC grabbed the phone and dialed your land line number. Of course I greeted you to start a conversation, then I asked if we could meet, without knowing if dad would even give me money which he eventually did. You said yes instantly. I need not to remind you over and over about it for you would not double cross me.
An hour was wasted before we finally met. I doubted that you would come but proved me wrong. You've added a little character but your own aura still shows, just the way I liked it. You still wear your usual smile, usual clothes when we meet, usual taste for liquors, usual type of clothes, usual philosophy, and usual optimism. Like back then we never ran out of stories and jokes.
Finally a question asked, at first I don't know how I would bring it out, straight to the point. You know where this was going like I did. "Why are you like this?" You asked "That's what I don't know. . ." I replied. I know that I would be wasting my time, my money, my breath and words but I still pursue on nothing. You don't want to talk about it as much as possible so I ride on with you for a while but then we go down to it again.
"You have no idea how much I missed you everyday. I wanted to call, text, PM and even go to your house but I just have to understand that you are busy like I am. I still long for you even if I know it's impossible. We've been together for only 3 years but we've known each other well for only 3 months, that's because we trust each other. You share your problems to me and mine to you. I keep myself busy for if I do nothing its only you in my head. You are the only piece from my past that I can't throw away."
"I am speechless . . . But . . . Why are you like this? You know that I don't want to think about it. No, please just understand and I am sorry. I am happy of where we are. What has got in to you? You know you are better than this, you know what is right. I am sorry but thankful to meet you. You are one of my few closets guys that I mention. And you have changed my life a lot."
Though we have a lot in common we have different priorities. It was not a mistake to meet up with you. I wanted to cut every communication with us at first, but I just can't. We shared more stories before we completely left to leave everything behind, except our friendship of course. I needed you to understand that I am really here for you even that I have failed. I still respect everything between us. We are always equal we don't awe anything from each other because we also repay everything in the end. I did not ask everything because I know that you may either not know the answer or purposely pass the question. I wanted also to hug you so much when you were holding back if only I didn't know where I stand.
Holding your hand for a second, we thanked each other apologized, turned back and went home. . . And another day has passed. . .
An hour was wasted before we finally met. I doubted that you would come but proved me wrong. You've added a little character but your own aura still shows, just the way I liked it. You still wear your usual smile, usual clothes when we meet, usual taste for liquors, usual type of clothes, usual philosophy, and usual optimism. Like back then we never ran out of stories and jokes.
Finally a question asked, at first I don't know how I would bring it out, straight to the point. You know where this was going like I did. "Why are you like this?" You asked "That's what I don't know. . ." I replied. I know that I would be wasting my time, my money, my breath and words but I still pursue on nothing. You don't want to talk about it as much as possible so I ride on with you for a while but then we go down to it again.
"You have no idea how much I missed you everyday. I wanted to call, text, PM and even go to your house but I just have to understand that you are busy like I am. I still long for you even if I know it's impossible. We've been together for only 3 years but we've known each other well for only 3 months, that's because we trust each other. You share your problems to me and mine to you. I keep myself busy for if I do nothing its only you in my head. You are the only piece from my past that I can't throw away."
"I am speechless . . . But . . . Why are you like this? You know that I don't want to think about it. No, please just understand and I am sorry. I am happy of where we are. What has got in to you? You know you are better than this, you know what is right. I am sorry but thankful to meet you. You are one of my few closets guys that I mention. And you have changed my life a lot."
Though we have a lot in common we have different priorities. It was not a mistake to meet up with you. I wanted to cut every communication with us at first, but I just can't. We shared more stories before we completely left to leave everything behind, except our friendship of course. I needed you to understand that I am really here for you even that I have failed. I still respect everything between us. We are always equal we don't awe anything from each other because we also repay everything in the end. I did not ask everything because I know that you may either not know the answer or purposely pass the question. I wanted also to hug you so much when you were holding back if only I didn't know where I stand.
Holding your hand for a second, we thanked each other apologized, turned back and went home. . . And another day has passed. . .
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