Nothing Personal ayt. . .

SHOUT IT OUT:

Last night was the best party hahaha! Frankly, I didn't like my exchange gift, but at least she gave a swiss knife. It was the best Christmas gift I got.

HOT SEAT:

I gave you a reminder. Though I know it is yours, I guess having it shared to the world for that long is enough. Remember, they have other friends out there. But like I said, its yours to decide, I am not forcing you to remove but rather requesting.

THOUGHT OF THE DAY:

It feels so good to be free and forgiven again!

Not so good Christmas

LOST IT AGAIN:

Yep, I lost my phone again alright, but my dad told me that mom's going to give me her phone which is also my favorite model of Motorola. Though I'll get it soon, I felt depressed and cursed. I always loose my cellphone at least once a year. Does this mean something or its just my carelessness?

CONFISCATED:

Last Tuesday my ID got confiscated by a professor. It was because I was shouting at the corridor. Well my friends and I got a bit hyped that day and we were like teasing each other. But the worse part of it was not my offense, but being a pathetic liar. Well the prof didn't know who shouted among us at first and I kept silent. So she confiscated our IDs. I admitted my offense two days after our IDs got confiscated. So by the time I made my confession with her, she gave back there IDs but mine will be given to the D.O. and will be returned on the 7Th of January. Better to have my ID confiscated rather bringing my guilt and conscience the whole Christmas.

SERVICE:

Who would have thought that I would be only serving three out of ten high masses; one at night and two on the morning. I am to tired recently and my body is demanding recreational activities and sleep; not to mention I am really thin and I am not getting taller anymore. There were many issues at KOA which I would not mention here. But why at these month? Why at this Christmas season? For all of the months that can happen, why now? But things are getting out of hands now. I guess my time is almost up and I am about to sign a resignation form sooner than I thought. I feel that they are being so dependent on us elders. It's about time to carry things on there own.

Dreams

MEMOIR LOG:

Usually before I go to sleep I drink either a hot or cold milk together with my multi-vitamins, brush my teeth, do a little stretching, pray and sleep. But now, that routine slightly changed. Sometimes I forget two to three of those things; but for sure I won't forget brushing my teeth.

Sometimes, I have a hard time getting to sleep, I suffer to a symptom called Insomnia. But when I get so tired, I fall asleep easily. Then of course, like others, I either have dreams or nothing at all.

Psychologically speaking -- Sigmund Freud and Carl Jung identify dreams as an interaction between the unconscious and the conscious. They also assert together that the unconscious is the dominant force of the dream, and in dreams it conveys its own mental activity to the perceptive faculty. While Freud felt that there was an active censorship against the unconscious even during sleep, Jung argued that the dream's bizarre quality is an efficient language, comparable to poetry and uniquely capable of revealing the underlying meaning (source: wikipedia.org).

But for me dreams are meant for three things; they may entertain your mind, give you a warning or sign, or the exact opposite of reality.

Sometimes the mind teases the heart through this dreams. And it so depressing when I could be with that someone I love in my dreams and not in reality. Where infact in reality, we are slowly loosing communication with each other. Its like watching a moive or series, you feel like you're part of it, you know what to do or what's coming up next but all you can do is just to watch everything go down. . .