My Sacrifice, Just Out of My Mind

SHOUT IT OUT:

The show turned out to be successful and a miracle. I've heard that it had a problem from the start, wala daw koryente, pero bumalik naman agad. I am glad to share also this experience with one of my best friend outside the ministry, he said that he had a good time and he wanted to thank us for the oppurtunity for letting him play. Buti na lang tinawagan ko siya for the variety show at nagkaproblema ako sa enrollment ko. Okay lang hindi na ako tumugtog basta lang ma share ko yung ginagawa ko sa kanya with God, I guess this was after all my sacrifice. So again, both ministries have surpassed another challenge ang lakas natin talaga kay Lord. I apologize sa commitee ko if I contributed nothing, sorry talaga.

I was freaking angry and depressed, mix emotions at that time. I wanted to cry out, but I can't. I realized that I've done something pathetic by the time I am inside my house, I also realized that I didn't have my dinner, kahit snack wala. To mention I am with the people who I really look up to and follow, napahiya ko sila. Namanhid kamay at paa ko sa sobrang galit. I guess seloso lang talaga ako and I am just putting myself down. I don't know what got in to my head . . . I am such a child (mas matino pa nga ata yung bata eh) or a loser even that time, bumalik yung pagka-init ng ulo at papansin ko. I know I should be happy, well I was happy tapos biglang boom, snap out. I'll get over this, I know I will, I have been through worse scenarios and I've surpass them. Nabigla lang ata ako kagabi, ewan ko. . . I'll get over it don't worry. For now kalma lang ako . . .

I only got 11 units, my goodness ang takaw ng mga tao sa schedule. 2nd day of enrollment palang lahat full na, ano kaya mangyayari sa mga late enrollees? Good thing my cousin was there to help me. I hope dumami pa yung mga mag pepetition sa mga subjects that I signned in. Talagang ganyan buti na magging tanga sa umpisa kesa sa gitna o huli and for experience na rin. So babalik pa ako next week for that, I hope I hit my mark.

FINAL THOUGHT:

Control, restrain, get a grip and chill. . . Better to be happy and high than depressed. . .

Double check everything before passing your documents. . .

In cases when many people are involved plus the weather is not on your side, you better be early than sorry. . .

If you're tired and everything is going though, think of it as if your in to an action packed adventure of your life, better than be bored to death. Marami lang ding pasaway, hehehe. . .

Be optimistic in every challenges, because wether its easy, medium or hard you'll still get through it. . .

Please answer, please, please!

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

1. I died:

2. I kissed you:

3. I lived next door to you:

4. I started smoking:

5. I stole something:

6. I was hospitalized:

7. I ran away from home:

8. I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

9. Personality:

10. Eyes:

11. Hair:

12. Family:

WOULD YOU:

13. Be my friend?

14. Keep a secret if I told you one?

15. Hold my hand?

16. Take a bullet for me?

17. Keep in touch?

18. Try and solve my problems?

19. Love me?

20. Date me?

21. Sing with me?

HAVE YOU EVER:

22. Lied to make me feel better?

23. Wanted to kiss me?

24. Wanted to kill me?

25. Broke my heart?

26. Kept something important from me?

27. Thought I was unbearably annoying?

MORE:

28. Who are you?

29. Are we friends?

30. When and how did we meet?

31. Describe me in one word:

32. What was your first impression?

33. Do you still think that way about me now?

34. What reminds you of me?

35. If you could give me anything what would it be?

36. How well do you know me?

37. When's the last time you saw me?

38. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

39. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?

40. Really?

The Beginning

Nung Monday ko lang nalaman na sa 29 pa pala yung enrollment ko so talagang pagod ako nung pag-uwi ko from AdU with my cousin, walang na-accomplish man lang. Sobrang nahiya din ako sa kanya kasi sa nagastos niyang pamasahe, taga San Pedro pa man din so, bro, sorry ah! Delikado din yung ginawa ko my goodness! Pero at least I know what to do na hehehehe pero sana masamahan mo ako para may kakwentuhan ako habbang nakapila, hmmm. . . Puro irregs . . . so paunahan na toh hahaha!

Kakauwi ko lang pala from a performance hehehe, yep tumugtog kami sa Youth Night! Full of energy yung mga tao, grabe! Astig yung mga dancers, feel na feel nila sayaw nila! Hmmm I could say na talagang amature pa kami, not a first time for us though, but talagang kulang kami sa practice and experience. But! Still! It was fun! A composition and a secular song. And yeah thanks to my co-guitarist/bassist, we already have a name, we are called "SHEPPERD'S FLOCK!" So far may two original songs na kami, "Maybe" & "My Cup Overflows". We still have many things to do, we need to have our own drumset na pwedeng dalhin kahit saan, a permanent bassist na willing tumugtog and magging committed sa ministry and a lot of songs to play and experience of course. I pray that no matter what happens we could still play and offer our talents for Him.

So The Variety Show is my next and final agenda for the month of May so I pray na matuloy toh, and please support the event, lalo na yung mga members ng dalawang community. It will be held on a parking lot sa harap ng Ressurection of Our Lord Parish on May 30 from 7pm - 10pm. Those who are willing to share their talents please tell me or anyone you know at the ministry. For further details we will be submitting flyers tom and check out our multiply sight, http://prymers.multiply.com, no entrence fee so its free! There would be bands and dancers malay niyo may kakilala kayo dun so sali na and come back home to God!

FINAL THOUGHT:
Fine, frankly, I was a bit depressed but honestly I am fine; I'll get over it, could have been worse.

Regrets, Letting Go and Moving On

SHOUT IT OUT:

Last night I was hyper, ka text ko banaman yung crush ko hehehe. But make no mistake hanggang dun lang yun I have no intentions of courting her. I told her that I am going to miss the times that we see each other at the corridor, library and the canteen. She replied back by telling me that she'll miss it too.

The two of us attended the Healing of Memories part, that was the first day and the last activity of the seminar. I was relieved to offer all of my good and mostly bad experiences for the past two years. Those names that I had written, I am thankful that I had met them even if they left me happy and painful memories. So yes, everything about it, I had already offered and let them go at the same time.

Sa mga nasabihan ko kanina, sorry din and please peace na tayo okay! Pero tandaan niyo ah, isang oras lang ang kailangan to listen and to be silent. And I hope binawi mo ang mga pinagsasabi mo! Grabe ka wala ka nang takot at hiya, please grow up!

So I would like to congratulate the new LSS graduates batch 25 (claps), especially yung mga umattend na PRYM members and for those other new people, your "real" journey with God has begun.

FINAL THOUGHT:

Well I've been thinking about it a lot and yes I guess nothing will happen. Don't worry soon it will all fade away and you too will realize that everything was just a dream. Regretting everything that had happened and finally telling straight to my face that I am just a waste of time!

A new path has been given to me and I can't wait to walk on it and embrace my new life!

Please read it and do what is asked!

I.

A man was busy throwing washed up clams back in the sea. A passerby, who saw his charitable activity, couldn’t help but ask, “Excuse me sir. May I ask, why you bother at all? Could you possibly think that you can make a difference by throwing a handful of clams back at the sea, while there are plenty of other clams being washed ashore?”

The man merely smiled, and threw another clam from that shoreline. Grinning at the passerby, all he said was, “Made a difference with that one.”

II.

A little girl just saw a TV program about African children suffering from Malaria. Moved by what she saw, the girl resolved to collect a quarter from each of her neighbors. After a few days, the little girl squealed happily. “Mommy, mommy I reached $10!” Her mother smiled sadly at her and replied. “That’s good dear. But $10 cannot possibly save the whole of Africa.”

Confused, the little girl said, “But mommy. $10 is the cost of a single saving kit (note: pills, med kit, etc.). I’ve already saved one!”

Ask yourselves,

How can a variety show possibly change all the BF Youth and turn them back to God?

Well, the youth variety show can’t do it alone. It will take A LOT of work.

But for every person you inspire, for every youth that you share the joy with, it doesn’t really matter if you can convince only a handful of youth to turn back to god. For their lives, you already made a huge difference.

Think about it. Why not share your talents to inspire others?

We’re just a call/text/IM away! Good night and God bless.

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... "A Conversation" ...

Guy: May I ask you something?

Girl: Sure. . no un. .?

Guy: Ano gagawin mo pag mahal mo yung tao pero hindi talaga pwede pero ramdam mo na somehow meron din siyang tingin sayo?

Girl: Ed ssvhin q s knya.. . mas ok n alm nya kesa mgcc k s huli n nde m nsv s knya dva. . . cguro mhirap un. . pero mas mggng ok prin kung mlalaman nya. .

Guy: Pano kung alam niya pero there is still a hindrance?

Girl: E pano m nmn nsv n alam nya.. .

Panong hindrance?

Guy: What if umamin ako sa kanya?

Hindrance -- like respect and studies na rin

Girl: Edi mganda kung aamin k, wait m ung reaction nya. .

Pano nging hindrance ung respect. .?

D q magetz. .

Guy: Respect, like there might be someone I could accidentally hurt.

Girl: Ganun. . .e ganun nmn s love e. . lging merong nsasaktan. . . pag ng love k b ready to get hurt. . .

Guy: Hindi naman yung magmamahal yung masasaktan eh kundi baka yung iba pang tao

Girl: Pano m nmn nasv n msasaktan xa... .?

Guy: Let’s just say they too had an affair in the past.

Girl: Ah i.c . . hrap nmn nyan.. pero u have to choose. . ignore wat u feel, and regret in d future or say wat u feel pero my mssktan. . .

Guy: Hehehe . . . sayang lang talaga yun yung masasabi ko

Girl: No kb!! take the risk!! mas maskit mg regret. .

Guy: But what if that person is all that you've got left?

For now?

Girl: Pano m nmn nsv n xa nlng nttra 4 u. . ?

Guy: Kasi siya lang ang nakakakilala sayo compared to your best friends and the people around.

kilala at intindi

Girl: Ganun.. wait lng i dont get it. . ung taong nttra sau is d person u love. .? tama b. . ?

Guy: Yes

Girl: E un nmn pala e!! kilaa k nya n naiintndhan k nya, malamng lam nrn nya ung feelings m 4 her. . .

Guy: Sana nga

Girl: Pero, itz better prin if u tell her. . para malamn m rin wat she feelz dva. .

Guy: Ito talaga gagawin mo if you are at that predicament?

Girl: Oo cguro. . pipilitin qng gawin. . .

Mas mhirap kc mgreregret e. .

Girl: Tel kung ano nangyari pag nsv m n huh. .

Guy: Sabihin ko sayo? kailangan pa ba?

Girl: Wait its up 2 u. . pero id love to know kung ano mangyayari. .

Guy: Well ganito kasi noh, inamin ko na kasi sa kanya, at obvious naman daw kasi (hehehehe) but yet hindi ko alam kung anong feelings sa akin ng tao

Kung anong feelings niya sa akin*

Girl: Oh, un nmn pala e!! nsv m n. . ed ask her if she feel something din. . .

Guy: Mukhang hindi talaga pwede

And pero -- ewan ko lang ah

Parang confused pa kasi siya eh

Girl: Ah ganun, . .if thats the case. . give her tym. .

Guy: That's her problem, hindi niya alam sasabihin niya sa akin

Girl: Ai ganun. . hirap nga nyan. . .

Guy: Ang hirap noh?

Girl: Oo nga e!! pero kaya m yn!! kawp. .

* Kaw p. .

Guy: Well

I love that person, but yet I don't want to hurt myself

Lalo na siya, ayoko siyang masaktan kasi she's all that I've got

Girl: Pero para mas mtahimik k alamin m talaga feelings nya. .

un nga un e. . .kea nga sv q sau. . wen u love be ready to be hurt. .

pno m xa mssktan? . . .e love m nga xa?

Guy: Just go with the flow na lang ako. . .

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10 random facts:

1.) I love to eat a lot, but I don't get fat, infact I only weigh 115-120 lbs and I am like 5'6 or 5'7... Sometimes, girls get jealous about my metabolism.

2.) I love to jam, I play guitar... Others think I am good but truly I just wanted to play along with songs that are good for me.

3.) I tend to go emotional when there are issues at me or around me

4.) I really hate politics and showbiz issues, they have their own problems let them fix it and settle our own.

5.) I am also a frank and an optimistic person... I will say what I need to say and don't ever think of me going to you if you have a problem with me... Ikaw nga yung may problema naman eh, but I am also a kind hearted person, masosolve din for sure.

6.) I am Neutrally Friendly, for you to find out! Good if you have!

7.) I am more of a hands on than memorizing stuff on my head, but I read books/novels though.

8.) I like swimming, I won a gold medal on basic and silver on advance and I wish I could go deep sea fishing.

9.) I already lost six cellphones, so my latest is my 7th CP. So don't ask why I don't get the latest models even if I can afford them with the help of my mom.

10.) I don't have a fear of looking down from a high ground, but hmmm... how will I descibe it...??? Imagine na nasa building ka na may 20 floors tapos nasa 10th ka kunwari. Tapos you're like on the edge of the 10th floor (still inside) seeing all the other floors. Wala akong prob tumingin sa baba, pero nalulula ako pag tumingin ako sa taas.

My brain is tired bahala na kung sino. . .